Being a Fish Out of Water + A BBT Guesting!
Hey everyone! It's been a crazy week and it's only gonna get crazier! New boxes, new collaborations and new experiments- it's been a pretty busy past two weeks. Sadly, more time out means that I have less time to blog, and it's taking its toll on me.
I've been so unhappy about posting off-schedule... I don't get to post on my MWF + week-ender schedule anymore. It sounds people pleaser-y but it's really not. Don't flatter yourselves.
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| No, I'm just kidding. Please don't leave. LOVE MEEEEE. |
I feel so unproductive when I'm off-schedule.
And I left my laptop at the bf's, dumdum that I am.
I had a good lineup planned for the next two weeks but I'm going to have to shuffle it around for a bit because all my files are at my boyfriend's. I didn't want to let another Monday go by being off-schedule but thankfully, the cutest Eula over at Eula Sleeps posted this awesome feature today!
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I found it a little hard to write for someone else. I felt like my tone was really alien and that I couldn't project my voice as much as I do on my own blog.
It was like speaking English as my second language; and that stunned me into silence. I was suddenly conscious of things I took for granted over here at BBT, for fear of offending the "local/native" Eula Sleeps readers.
I mean come on! I already face potential criticism from this site. What if I'm not cool enough for Eula's readers, who are so spoiled from her awesome writing and awesomer photos?!
I sensed that it wasn't my own space. That made it a tougher to write.
Any person will fear opening up in a strange, new place, but as a writer, that is one of the best ways to improve in your writing.
Despite feeling like a fish out of water,
I chose to take up the challenge and stay true to
me
rather than imitate what I thought would appeal to Eula's readers. There's no use trying to win people over as an impostor of someone else.
I guess ultimately, it felt nice to say things I don't normally get to say on here, despite it leaving me self-conscious :)
Writing this post is like extreme sports. There's a feeling of impending doom but it is actually exciting, rather than paralyzing. I found it very flattering and even more inspiring to write for another blogger!
It gave me a fresh perspective on things and helped me express what I usually left out and assumed as understood.
I felt like I had to explain myself more to these
strangers,
and that actually helped me re-explore old thoughts and explain myself more clearly.
Anyone else who wants to work on something, hit me up! I love learning from and sharing tips with fellow beauty enthusiasts :)